Happy New Year…..I’m Tapped Out On Self Improvement.

I love to read blogs. Blogs of all kinds.  “Stress Almost Killed Me-Then I Changed My Mind”, “Do You Focus On Your Needs Or The Needs Of Others”, “How To Be A More Mindful Parent”. The list can go on and on. We read blogs to get information, see a different side to something, learn a new craft..whatever.

What I have found, as I write this blog, is that it’s another three second sound bite. My life for the last 10 years has been, mind you slowly, getting more distracted. As I, write this, I’m texting with a TV on in the background. I have read numerous blogs on how to be more “zen”. Do one thing at a time. Take your time. (I’m now watching a Facebook video, on my phone, on how to recycle sweaters.)  I don’t don’t doresolutions.  They BORE me. I really don’t know one person who sticks to them. I don’t. Then I thought….

I have ONE!! I have a RESOLUTION!

I’m going to stop trying to IMPROVE MYSELF.

I can’t do it anymore. I’m enough. So are you. We all are. I read that in a blog.

I’m going to live life. Whatever happens, so be it. I really try to control things. I can’t. I don’t want to. I don’t want to explain why, or how. I don’t want to know how or why.

I’ve read in blogs you should say YES to almost everything and see what great doors open in your life. I’m going to say YES to my own door that I ignore everyday, because, most of the time I’m looking at ways on how to improve work life, family life, friendships, my child. It’s exhausting.  I’m also going to say NO. No is a good word when you are saying YES to you. I love writing, tarot readings, hiking, summer, reading books and naps. I want more talk time and less texting. I think I’m  going to just try to be.

I’m enough… just the way I am. And…. so are You.